hi world.

hi world!

how are you?

i'm feeling pretty stressed out now for not much apparent reason. last night i was still feeling pretty calm about the imminent promo's which are coming up in just a week. in fact from the present time, it's really less than a week.

somehow, i have my usual feeling of feeling preparedly unprepared. like no matter what you do, you just have this lingering feeling that something will go wrong, you will forget some definition of allocative efficiency, some formula for angular velocity, and some other random stuff that might just decide a B from an A, or an E from a D.

wellwell, yet other than constantly mugging and reading and revising and practising, there isn't much else you can do to prepare yourself. how do you know you know? lol. it's quite true la! most people will definitely go into something and somehow, you might just forget something along the way. like how zhanming forgot his pre-start or starting checks when he got damn stressed flying his assessment flight. hha~ well yea, it's supposed to be completely internalized and i guess, yea i can do them w/o thinking at all now but hm... you never know!

so well.. tmr's the last day of school! so exciting.

well not really, it's the last day before promos.

actually promo's are quite exciting when you look at it. for once, you see the whole school coming together with a common goal of studying, to finish their promos, hope everyone does well, and all get promoted. (and if we're lucky, make it to the dean's list). well, for me, i hope i can at least improve upon my grades which are quite.. average. it's not fantastically good or exceptionally sucky but well it's definitely sth i wanna improve upon.

i hope i can push my physics up to A this time as the ct's were really crappy.
hm... but as said, it really is the end of it all (ie the A's) which is the most important. in fact really as to what ben has said, after council, studying suddenly seems carefree and easy and relaxing. at least you can more or less take things in your own stride and do what you want.

i guess this was the reason why i've been so flushed and easily agitated recently when lize has kept asking me stuff about open house.

well tonight was one that ive been real stressed for reasons appraent or otherwise. i just have this sense of dread that something bad is gonna happen, but this is what i always feel before exams anyway. i guess i'll attempt to mug harder and fly harder and just jiayou in everything.

3 days of study break + the weekend. i shall use one day for one subject and hopefully internalize everything. buffers seems to have gone quite well. time to whack gravitation for physics. some warped thingy la! it's worse than relativity i tell you.. lol suddenly living in a sense of timelessness wheere everything slows down and adjusts according to the speed of light seems great! haha. h3 r0x0rz xD

somehow i want my 'carefree' life of sec4 back. yet during that time, i was totally saying how i wudnt mind being committed to sth and just going full steam ahead in it. well the grass is always greener on the other side but life's been great! ahah

this has been a totally random post and well.. i shall hit the bed soon as i'm definitely gonna need tons of energy and stamina to study finish everything soon. needa read finish physics tmr and probably the econs last few chapters. RAWR -dies-

lucky term 3 was short and they cudnt teach much. if not promos really gg. lol

laters all!

bye world.